Our day home was going to be closed for two weeks and I thought it would be the perfect time to spend some extra time with my youngest… That time has already come to an end and I feel completely different than I thought I would.
I thought by now I would be counting down the hours until I went back into the office, stressed out from how difficult it was to get work done with Cordelia demanding constant attention, struggling with getting Bobby ready for school and then getting him to and from school every day. I thought I’d be begging for adult interaction or an excuse to do my makeup. It would be easier if that was how I felt right now.
I don’t think I’ve ever been so excited to start a new month – February was a tough one. Like I mentioned in My Kingdom for a Good Night’s Sleep, Bobby was really sick for two weeks. It started at the end of January… we had just bought him a new loft bed for his birthday, and he had gone upstairs to lie down because he just wasn’t feeling fantastic. 20 minutes later I heard ‘mommy…’ and ran upstairs to see that he had gotten sick… from the top step of his new bed. We got him cleaned up and set him up on a pad on the floor and spent the next 4 hours cleaning his entire room because it. was. everywhere.
One of the first pieces of advice I was given as a mother was ‘sleep when your baby sleeps’ which is almost impossible when they never do. Chronic sleep deprivation is something I have dealt with since my son was born 7 years ago. I used to spend hours on forums and reading books trying to figure out how to get him to sleep for more than 45 minutes at a time. People would tell me… ‘once he starts eating solids he’ll start sleeping’, and then it was ‘once he becomes more active during the day he’ll start sleeping’ and then ‘once he starts at the day home and has more of a routine during the day he’ll start sleeping’. Everyone seemed to have the magic key for getting kids to sleep, and I felt like a failure because he just never did.