Weight Loss Wednesday #1

wlw1bHappy Wednesday everyone! This is my very first post of my new series: Weight Loss Wednesday’s (or WLW). And for my first post I thought it would be fitting to give a bit of a background on my weight, and what my goals are.

Most of my life I was a healthy weight, curvy but far from overweight. Then I met my husband… I think I put on 25lbs within the first 3 years of us being together… Yikes right? Then I managed to lose a bit of it… And a few years later I got pregnant with my son – during that pregnancy I gained 70lbs, losing 40 almost instantly… The other 30 not so much. With my daughter I gained 30, and lost 20 pretty quick… and that’s where I am now. For those keeping track I am now 65lbs over my ideal weight… And it’s because I’m lazy.

Before going back to work I was exercising regularly, eating well and drinking a ton of water… But since returning to work I have *adopted* a life of convenience… Fast food in the truck on the way to work in the morning, fast food in the truck on the way to taking bobby to school at lunch, fast food on the way home from taekwondo… And I don’t take the time to exercise in the evening – choosing instead to watch tv… And instead of burning calories… I consume more.
8ab89321286ccf3f144fe77438ece38cStarting at
• 65lbs overweight
• BMI of 34.7 (Obese)

My goals…
• 65lbs obviously is what I want gone
• I am aiming for 1.5 lbs a week – knowing that I will probably drop a few quickly, and then it may take a bit to start seeing regular loss
• I will be re-implementing my reward system – with a strict no buy in place until I reach a milestone (10lbs)
• Water water and more water

• Slow and steady – I’m going to implement small changes every week, and I’m also going to exercise a minimum of 30 minutes every day. I know I have the time, I just have to make it happen.
• I am going to track my calorie intake using My Fitness Pal, and my water with Waterlogged.
• My weekly updates will include how I’m doing, what my challenges have been… my successes and when I stumble.

My first small step
I am going to stop drinking my calories, except for my daily Starbucks Maple Macchiato.. because mama needs her coffee. I estimate this alone will cut down 200 – 300 calories a day, or 1400 – 2100 a week while also encouraging me to drink more water!a-year-from-nowIf anyone out there is starting their journey, or in the middle of it… I’d love to put together a private Facebook group or something so we can get through this together. No quick fixes, crash diets, or product sales… just straight up support and motivation to eat better and exercise.

What’s your favorite healthy snack?

i am… burnt out

Untitled-2Maybe you’ve noticed it’s been a bit quiet around here lately, or maybe you haven’t – that’s okay too. I’ve been debating writing this post for a while in the hopes that getting it out would help me get past it, and maybe it will help others knowing they aren’t alone, but by the time the day is over the thought of opening my laptop and doing anything at all is unthinkable. I don’t know if it’s depression, or if it’s just that I’m overwhelmed – maybe it’s a bit of both. Every day is so scheduled to the minute and I feel like there’s never any time. I posted shortly after returning to work last year about how the clock is always ticking… and what a regular day looked like… 8 months later work is busier, Cordelia is sleeping a bit better, and we’ve added in some extra curriculars to keep the little guy busy.

Thankfully Cordelia isn’t waking up 3-4x a night anymore, but she does go through stages where she’s waking up once – or up at 4 and won’t go back to sleep. Sometimes we are lucky enough to sleep until 5:30, those are nice days. After working all day, running Bobby to Kindergarten and Taekwondo… we come home, make dinner, help with homework, read books, play for a while and it’s time for bath and bed. Then a lot of nights I spend some time working from home to stay on top of my deadlines. Once it’s time to relax, I look around at the house that is in complete disarray… feel guilty about the fact that I didn’t remember to get Bobby to do his Taekwondo practice, or get out for a bike ride… know that we’ll spend the weekend cleaning and organizing and doing laundry, and that none of it matters because by this time next week, it’ll be the exact same.

I haven’t been exercising, at all… all the progress I made a year ago is pretty much gone. I haven’t been eating well (no breakfast or lunch, and then binge eating in the evening) or sleeping well (probably due to the binge eating). And I am sure all of this is feeding in to my current emotional state. I’m going to start a new series next week – Weight Loss Wednesdays – that will help me to hold myself accountable, and hopefully get myself on track and working towards my goals… because I have a long way to go and as I said earlier… the clock is always ticking.

Kindergarten is over in 2 months, and then I think things will start to settle down mentally for me, though I’m sure it will pick back up in September when he starts grade one.

Thank you for taking the time to read through my emotional brain dump. I’ve said this a few times but I will be trying hard to find time this weekend to start working on some lighter content for next week, I’ve put it on my to do list at least, hopefully getting back in to it will bring back my blogging spark. ♥

How do you handle mental and emotional burnouts? I could use any tips you have!